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high on failing
got to get a grip on whats important
i've slept on opportunities
to better myself

short sighted goals of pleasure
to trigger dopamine responses
have served me no good
in my current situation

procrastination is killing me
buried under guilt, please - set me free

i will fall

"be afraid" is my new mantra
giving into every whim of the parasites controlling me
all day self hate resonates loudly
i can't escape the call to die
please leave me be
stop the screaming

i am alone - the weakened left to die in its misery
not coming back - behold - the final version of what is me

every war fought inside my own head
is a battle of attrition
a vision
a bastion
just be gone

apathetic notions
dig deep inside
you don't care what happens to me
i tried living and i'm fucking desperate
oh god please help me
a massive shift
insufferable deep pain

i'm fighting tooth and nail to try and save whats left of me
the curses of my thoughts determined to fill my grave
one thing that i know is it will not quit - the message is clear - conscise - the future is now here

i will suffer


from TwentyTwentyTwenty, released October 23, 2020


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Torrential Downpour Haworth, New Jersey

Torrential Downpour is a mixture of technical and progressive metal coupled with post rock tendencies; highlighted by vocal manipulation, electronic noise, and subtle ambience. Some people call it Space Metal.

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